Saturday, October 22, 2011

31 Days to His Heart :: when pain and grief are real {Day 22}

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I’m humbly treading the hallowed ground of the Heart of God for the 31 days of October.  First we look deep into the Beauty of His heart, shown through God the Father and His Son Jesus, then, we peer into the fragile and yet powerful role of our own hearts as we seek His and learn to live it in this world.  To read the entire series go{here} 31 Days to His Heart.

May YOU be blessed with a touch of Him TODAY…He who desires and is Fully Worthy of ALL of our hearts!


when the hardest of life’s questions and the darkest of its realities hit, how do we come to His Heart then?

Psalm 62:8 (ESV)

Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
   God is a refuge for us.

Isaiah 42:3
a bruised reed he will not break, and a faintly burning wick he will not quench; he will faithfully bring forth justice.

Isaiah 53: 4-6

Surely he has borne our griefs
   and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
smitten by God, and afflicted.
But he was wounded for our transgressions;
   he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
and with his stripes we are healed.

All we like sheep have gone astray;
   we have turned—every one—to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
   the iniquity of us all.


Where else can we go but to a Suffering Servant who is also Savior when pain and grief rub us raw?

When tears are real and deep and even more when they are stuck within us as red, hard, hot, lumps of pain, who else will understand?

It may very well be that those who love us most disappoint us so profoundly in the midst of the pain SO THAT we will come to the Only One who can heal.

I have walked paths of grief young and real and hurting that couldn’t be hardened and numbed and I can not say that I have always come to His heart where healing is alone.

But, I can say that with each deep pain the journey long I have learned a bit more who will touch a sobbing heart…physical arms that bear His touch must be received, but at the end of the day, in the dark of the night, it is the meeting and the entering of the Abba heart into all of the cracks and holes and tender to touch and soothe the bloodied inner stuff that must be known for if a battered soul wants to become whole.

It is not easy.  I fight the hardening most here and the self-pity rages that no one cares and I lash out against a world that is not Home and I run and flee this Heart meant to meet me in the midst of all so wrong.

But, it is worthy.  He is worthy.  The soul will be restless until rest be found in Him {St. Augustine} and heart will remain raw and tears will fall with none to dry and self will curl in upon the inner life and all will be wrung out and nothing make sense…

if we do not allow Him to love us in our pain and grief.

if we close our eyes and shut our ears and stuff our noses and purse our lips and withdraw our hands, we only really give pain the final say.  we believe the lie that He does not have our best at heart and we let go of all that has proved Him faithful over and over…

But, oh, His heart, ever calling and drawing and promising from a God who cannot let us down to come and find all we need to be more than conquerors and live, really live, all that we long to.

Praying His Heart

Oh Lord, You alone give life and heal and make hope real and truth transforming even and especially in the midst of our pain.  Teach us to come in Your ever-patient allowing disappointment so that we come to You way, the Only One who satisfies.  Praise you that you wound to heal and allow all of that scalds the heart-skin that we might come and find what we never could have without the grief and tears.

Help us, we are desperate for Your touch!



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