Monday, June 6, 2011

Have I run well?

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This is the question I am asking as I take my last evening walk and dive into an evening of final packing.  The finish line is in sight and faithful has meant packing well for longer than I want and I know that there is so much more I could have done right here, in this neighborhood, to be a light.

Grace covers what is done and must take what I know and live in fervent prayer for the many here who need Him.  For the neighbor’s on the one side who make Kingdom Hall their Sunday home and who are gentle and kind and warm and who we love and are loved by.  Will they ever see Him for Who He is?  Please, Lord, Oh Please reveal Yourself to them…

For the neighbors on the other side who believe in Allah.  What I hear as we break bread this evening I walk still hurting my heart.  I know they believe their way is THE WAY.  And as my husband shares that so do we and one of us is wrong, she clarifies how they see it:  Your Jesus didn’t get it right, there were many mistakes and that’s why Muhammed had to come—to fix them.  Heart is breaking and I needed to hear it like that from her.  It really is all about Him.  The Savior Unique and True is the One in question.  Believing He is less than all He said and lived is what every other way believes in the end.

Sunday morning it was about that living-it-all for Him.  My husband is bold, but I’m still too shy, too often.  We are a great team, but I long to live it all more.  The sermon was powerful ending with the reality that until our hearts are in ‘anguish’ over the realities of the brokenness and the far-from-Him that pervade our world, we have not really known His heart.  I needed to hear this.  I am so, so thankful for a chance for this heart to break for what remains so, so broken in this world I leave physically today. 

Lord Jesus, may I carry this anguish in my heart and remain faithful, laboring in prayer, and living fully knowing that in the end You divide and where You are not Lord there is no true fellowship. No eternity.

These are hard words for our age, for these last days, but they are necessary words to come from anguishing hearts to bleed out into a world that needs us bold.  clear.  His.

This week, Lord, I thank you simply, fully that

  • YOU ARE ALL YOU SAY YOU ARE! 
  • In the end, We receive our heart’s delight—You.
  • Face-to-Face with Father, Son, Holy Spirit.
  • Face-to-Face with the desire of our hearts…
  • YOU. ARE. ALL. YOU. SAY. YOU. ARE!
  • I AM HERE TO MAKE YOUR NAME GREAT!!!
  • YOUR NAME IS WORTH DYING FOR!
  • YOUR NAME IS WORTH EVERY OUNCE OF SACRIFICE.
  • YOUR SHED BLOOD AND ITS BEAUTY THAT MAKES ALL OTHERS FALL AWAY IN THE LIGHT OF YOU.
  • A chance to have my heart broken before I leave this place.
  • Those who seek You with all of their hearts…find You.
  • There is still light…Bring them Home, Lord…reveal Yourself to this World while it is still light.
  • A thousand mercies times a thousand in this season where many, many hands have fallen from Heaven and lifted us up!!
  • the BEST yet to come…

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{This is the day we leave this house. Pack up this computer.  We’ll be on the road to our overseas training and settling in there the rest of the week.  I don’t know when I’ll get to post an update, but I will when I can.  Traveling cross country with two little ones.  We’d appreciate your prayers and for those of you faithful readers not yet on our E-mail Prayer Update List, send me an e-mail at aalleman_03 (at) yahoo (dot) com and I’ll add you!}

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