I see the sun shine on the pond that I have walked by with my son for most of his life. It has only been two years, but it is still most of his life.
Exquisite Beauty. Snap.
The light shines through and I am taken. Snap.
My heart is expanding with each step and I stop. and stop. and stop. and snap. and snap. and snap. There seems to be no way to capture the beauty…it is too vast and reaches into the deep places.
I was a new mom and alone. All family and friends a thousand miles away and this became my home. I reached out and felt rejected and my heart ached for those too far to touch. I cried big tears as a little girl pleading with her daddy for the thing I wanted most. Friends. It took time and I had to wait and I cried some more and grew close to my son and husband and mostly to the God who sees…who I call Abba.
I walked these sidewalks and the beauty was hard to see. The seasons were not the same. I longed for the brilliant colors of fall, but instead I got Spanish moss hanging low and strangers that I had to open my heart to beginning with the prologue. I wanted the ones that knew my story inside and out, not the ones that I had to stumble in front of with each tentative word.
But it was not long before I received much more than I gave.
Friends who quickly showed me that I could call them at any hour and they would help. Friends who got me through the sickness of my next pregnancy. Friends who cared for my son when my
daughter was born. Friends who became family in the blink of an eye. Who know what it is to be far away from home, to have lost those most dear, to share the holidays when the distance is most painful.
Family that Abba gave to show that He will always take care of me. That He is lavish. I asked Him for friends and He gave me Family. I need to hold onto this in the deep places because soon I will move an ocean away from this family and all of the others.